I hate the fact
That I’ll be ending high school with people who still hold stupid things against me because of that one time that one thing happened like a month ago, and its just getting ridiculous.
I also hate the fact that I’ll be ending high school with uneasy feelings about people, and really huge regretful feelings and memories that will forever haunt me because of the decisions I made.
I hate how I am hearing how much I have ruined their high school life because of what I said and did.
I hate myself for choosing to to do the wrong things that I have been convinced were right.
I wish that I had just listened to myself, not anyone else. Its really hard to forgive and stop arguing with myself because of the mistakes I made. I’ll always hold it against me, and I won’t stop..ITS ANNOYING.
I’ve had a really poor appetite for the longest time, and really bad insomnia. I keep staying up all night thinking about it, and skipping meals throughout the day to nap…Its unhealthy.
Graduation and gradnight better be something spectacular. I really want to forget and move on.